BARBADOS (Naked Departure) — WARNING, this blog is of a SENSITIVE nature. Good evening Naked Departure. I’ve been meaning to write to you a long time now. You see, Naked, I was a user and I don’t mean ganja. I would go clubbing here in Barbados, St. Lawrence Gap area, and sometimes end up at someone’s hotel or in a stranger’s bedroom. Since I didn’t remember much about anything that night, it never bothered me….not much…..
Naked, a stranger felt it necessary to ‘take pity’ on me the other afternoon. He introduced himself to me and said he had information he thought I needed to see. Naked, I knew without knowing that it was something I needed to see and hear. My worst nightmares started and have not ended.
Naked, what that man had on his phone was a video of ME. I was in heat and under the influence of cocaine and I was in a room full (about 10) of black men. Naked, the men put their feet and their fists in a place where only children are supposed to come from. Naked, it was being done to me and they were laughing and the feet of men are not small.
Naked, I am Barbadian and I have always held a good job, been featured in the daily newspapers and people look up to me as the ‘boss’. But Naked, since viewing that video (the guy deleted it and said he kept it to show it to me) and not knowing how many other black men/people have that video of me, I have been having continuous nightmares! And yes, I will expect the comments coming in will not make me feel any better. Thanks for the warning Naked.
I plan on making a “Naked Departure” out of Barbados too myself. I feel possessed here and I know I’d do better in a bigger country where there are many other choices and opportunities for me to do what I really love. You see Naked, I love to paint and I love animals so I am working on just getting away, permanently, and reclaiming myself.
With the job I do now, I travel and Naked, never ever have I sought out drugs when abroad. But from the time I set foot back here in Barbados, I need to medicate. You see, Naked, what you write about that new word I learnt from you “ZEITGEIST” explains a lot. The slave code and things that Bajans still embrace; Mother Sally and Crop Over,… all those things I didn’t think too much about until you came along Naked. There is definitely something wrong here but because we are born into it we don’t see it.
But, to think that something like that could have happened to me and I not need medical care or not feel anyway afterwards is just shocking! I have no recollections of tears or pain. I am in a state of constant shock Naked! I feel like I will go out of my mind!
To the young people who read Naked Departure’s blog, please, please, I beg you…stay off of drugs, especially the hardcore ones. Not many men would show you a video. Hardly any of these Bajan men here care.
Naked, I want to thank you for listening to me. I want to thank you for taking my call. I want to thank you for being up all night long and hearing me cry. I want to thank you Naked for helping me put this blog together, showing me where to start and where to stop. I know you say it but I don’t know if you believe it, but history will remember you, I will remember you. You have done a good thing and nothing good comes without blood, sweat, tears and sacrifice. Thank you Naked. I hope your day is pleasant and calming. Anonymous